I don't know what's going on these past couple of days but I'm empty, I'm lost and it sucks.
I cry thinking about him, I cry looking at his picture, I cry touching his things, even his socks...yea his socks, I can't even put those away. I cry wondering if after all this time I should be making some kind of an improvement, I cry because I'm pretty positive I'll go insane without him.
Shit...I'm crying now just typing this. :(
I won't be around at all till maybe Tuesday sometime, so if you don't see your comments it's only because I'm not home to post them.
My oldest is having surgery Monday morning and the boys and I will be spending some time at her place.
"Peace", I've thought about you lately from time to time. I have no hate or hard feelings in my heart for you, we're human and we all make mistakes. God knows I've never been a saint. I hope you know that I am truly sorry for anything I ever said that was hateful.
I wish so badly you could have known him before he left us. He was an awesome man, fuck....he really was.
My back piece memorial to my Vinny is halfway there, as soon as it heals up some I'll post a picture. Typically my facebook will have all the latest pics first, just a little FYI.
Before I sign off till Tuesday...here's a quick picture of Kody and his reptile pride and joy, Sid. This was taken yesterday.
Have a great day everyone..enjoy the ones you love and tell them you love them a lot.