Thursday, July 14, 2011

Healing....

I can't even begin to tell you how many books I have bought and read on healing.
Everyone has a different opinion but most basically start and end with, "there is no wrong or right way to heal after the death of a loved one, everyone is different, do what is right for you"

They also say NOT to make any major decisions for at least one full year especially if they are permanent ones.

Me? Well, I've never been one to follow the rules. I march to the beat of my own drum. I've never been one to conform to what is "normal".
I'm 48 years old and if I want to wear stilettos while baking a cake and then change into Converse when I head off to the movies with my kidlets, that's what I do.
I am who I am...easy to get along with, a loyal friend, a pretty OK Mom {I think?}, I love, I laugh and I live.
I have been loved, actually I have been cherished and that to me is the greatest feeling of all.

I would NEVER consider cutting my hair short just because I'm "middle age" and society tells me I probably should.
I still shop for myself at Hot Topic and Victoria Secret. Nope, I have nobody to impress, I do it because I like to and no other reason.
I never use drugs, I eat healthy about 80% of the time, I walk for exercise and although I couldn't while Karl was still alive {I respected him to much for that}, I will be the first to admit, every once in a while, at the end of a crazy day, when I know I don't have to go anywhere, I still enjoy a nice big glass of Malibu Rum and Pineapple Juice.

From the front I look like any other woman you'd see out doing her Mom thing.
From the back, I LOVE the shock value.

I am Kim, and I LOVE tattoos.
Which, BTW, goes against every rule in every book about healing after the loss of a spouse.
I am Kim, and I am a rule breaker. :)

The beginning portrait you've already seen.
This is the middle..."Would You Know My Name If I Saw You In Heaven"

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The three "negative" stars {the inside is skin color the outside is shaded} above his head symbolize "Faith...Hope and Love", the three words we based our marraige on.
The stars have meaning to only Karl and myself. He would know in a heartbeat what they are and that's why they are very close to him.
The tribal below my neck has been there for years, it has the word "HOPE" in it, can you see it? It's kind of hidden.

I won't stop until my complete back is a memorial to the most beautiful man who ever walked with me hand in hand on this planet.
And the best is yet to come. :)

BTW...please look past the chubster rolls and the frizzy Florida hair.
I am who I am.

Have a great day everyone!!

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10 comments:

Carol said...

Kim, that is just plain awesome. I love that you are you regardless of what others think you "should" be. I always say, until you've walked in those same shoes, you don't know how you would react given the same situation - so do not judge! I think about you often and my prayers are for you and your family's healing.
Carol in MN

JustJn said...

beautiful!! sending luv and hugs from one awesome/cool/fun mom to another :) (btw, i shop at hot topics sometimes too and i am almost 40)

Brittany..Following my Bliss said...

I know I'm not on facebook but I give it a "thumbs up". I'm sure "Vinny" loves it too!

Jackie said...

Oh my, what an awesome tat! I got all teary looking at it, that is Forever Love, folks! I would do that. I have a night time shooting star across my shoulder in memory of my 19 yr old niece, so yeah, I understand. It's beautiful, don't let anyone tell you any different!

Cheyenne said...

I hear ya, girl. It's your skin, you do with it as you wish and to hell with everyone else.

Lisa Burt said...

Oh Kim you are so inspiring. My Ronnie died 5 years ago this August and I **so** want a memorial on my back because I know I will never, ever be with anyone again. I know what I want, I know where I'd want it,I can see it in my minds eye and every thing...I just haven't been brave enough to do it. Please keep showing us the work as it progresses.xxx

DONNA BOGIE said...

Beautiful!!
Donna, ny

Shiela in NY said...

Your tribute to Karl and what you had together is amazing!!

Dot O said...

Beautiful, Kim... just beautiful.

Sea52Jay said...

You are an amazing and unique lady, one of a kind. I love that you are willing to ignore what the hell society says is proper (what a stupid word) and that you are so much stronger than even you realize. You have my respect and love always. CJ

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