Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Memories

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Kim, Kody & Kolin Kruppenbacher
30914 Sealine Drive
Leesburg, FL 34748

I'm sorry for not getting on here much, we've been having horrible, bad days. There is so much sadness and the world still seems so gray.
Thank you everyone for your kind words, they help us so much you have no idea.

I lay in bed, mostly at night when the craziness of the day has ended, I think about the times we had, the memories that will remain in my heart forever.

This day in Cape Coral was truly one of our favorites. It was Mothers Day, 2009 and we went south to see Kayara, Arthur and Adriana. That was the day Kody got his voice back, it was also the day we slipped away for a few hours to ourselves.
Spending time together doing anything or just doing nothing, he made it always so beautiful for me.

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I miss him so much, there are just no words to describe the pain and emptiness in my heart, in my soul.

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36 comments:

Anonymous said...

Kim, I cant even imagine, im so sorry. I have been married to my husband 29 yrs this year and I was 17 when we got married. This is so scary and tragic because it can happen to any one of us at any moment.You are all in my thoughts more than you will ever know. I have been reading your blog since the caringbridge days.
Donna, ny

pmandich1 said...

Kim, My heart still hurts so much for you. I cannot begin to know how you feel but I do know that my thoughts and prayers are with you all the time. Take comfort in the fact that even though you cannot see the love of your life he is right there with you.

Kim said...

i miss him so much its insane to think just a few days ago he was in the living room hacking up a lung its so depressing.and your right the memories will never fade unless we let them die but as long as we put forth the extra effort in order to keep them alive they will stay alive. and just this morning i herd what i thought was a signe from dady i herd Matt go outside using the sliding glass door and he just stepped out side to smoke a half of a cigg then he started to hack up a lung just like and i thought i was right this was all just a big nightmare then i looked outside to see my dady agean then i saw Matt so i went back to bed and just lost it i trueley think this is'int real RIP MY DADY A.K.A VINNY PROVOLONE

annieb said...

checking on you often...continuing to wrap you tight in prayer...hugs from GA

Shiela in NY said...

Kim, I remember when you went on that few hours together. You deserved so much more than that, but I'm so happy you have memories and pictures to cherish. Karl made things special by doing, saying, or buying "small" things. It goes to show that big things come in small packages, cuz you don't have to have hundreds of dollars spent to make good memories!! I know you'll hold all these memories and pictures close at heart.

I've had a busy day at work so haven't had a chance to call but hope to call you right after I'm done. Don't want to call too late at night, in case you're actually resting (sleeping??). As they say, it always gets so hard when things quiet down after the funeral and everyone goes home. I'm just thankful the boys aren't back to school just yet. Luv ya...

Lori from MN said...

I was reading back in your blogs and I read the story how you and "hunky arms" met in the school cafeteria. And at the store when he asked if you wanted a bite of his apple you thought you "died and went to heaven". And ever since you two were a couple. First of all you really have a knack for story telling. I was rolling as I read that story. OMG! I don't know why I wrote about this story. You certainly have a lot of memories written in your blog and maybe still on Kody's caringbridge site. Some of these you may have forgotten about without the help of the internet/computer. I hope as time goes on you find comfort in your entries and maybe at times laughter.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry you are having such horrible days. I wish there was some way to take the pain away. I feel for you, and I really do think of you all so often throughout the day. When I was going through a time of loss, and trying to hold it all together and be strong....a friend once told me, "Feel your feelings and be kind to yourself." Those words comforted me because I felt that I had to be strong and hold myself together all the time. It "gave me permission" to feel the grief, the sorrow, the anger, the pain, and it eventually helped me heal. I'm not telling you what to do or what to feel...just passing a few comforting words on....
Hang in there, Kim. ((((hugs)))) and prayers for peace and healing....
Liz, NY

Jenner said...

Hang in there K's...this is so unfair, but you are strong. You are all constantly in my thoughts and prayers.
Jen in WI

Naidne said...

Just stopping by to tell you that your family is in my thoughts. I have been following your blog since the caringbridge days, but don't think I have ever commented. I'm heartbroken for you at the sudden loss of Karl. May you and the K kids find peace in all of the loving memories you've shared here. "Unable are the loved to die, for love is immortality."

Anonymous said...

One of my favorite priests of all time said the following phrase in the Prayer of the Faithful at each Mass. I hope you find as much comfort in it as I have:

"Let us remember that the bonds of love and affection that knit us together here on earth, do not unravel with death."

May you all feel the love, strength, and comfort of God's mercy.

Debbie Shumaker

Anonymous said...

Kim, I just can't get you off my mind. I look at my husband Jim of 30 years and am trying to soak it all in as it can be gone like you and Karl aka Vinnie. May you continue to feel our love and prayers. Know we are here for you and your family.
Hugs from Iowa,
Marjie

Cari H. said...

I am so sorry to hear this news! I usually check your site everyday, but have not done so lately do to the holidays. Again, I am sorry.

Cheyenne said...

They say it gets easier as time passes. I lost both my parents within 2-1/2 months of one another. I know what you are going through somewhat. I try to put myself in your shoes and find it very difficult.
Prayers are still abundant from my heart to yours.

Debbie Jean said...

Just wanted to say, I am thinking of you and praying for all of you daily. I am so sorry Kim, I can not even imagine. Hold those memories close.

God Bless~
Debbie Jean

JustJn said...

I come to your blog everyday just to see if you've posted. All you can do is take it one day at a time. How are the kids? They say time makes it easier and it's true. Keep the memories alive by talking about him often. Make sure the kids never forget how much he loved them. I wish this was all a bad dream and it would end. My heart breaks for your family. Sending love from AZ.

USMCwifeAMY said...

Kim, I am so shocked! I've been a follower of your blogs for many years and have always been in awe of you and Karl's devotion to each other. I cried reading your messages today, I've come to care for you guys a lot.

I wish there was something I could say to make it better...but you guys are in my thoughts and prayers...
Amy

USMCwifeAMY said...

Kim, I am so shocked! I've been a follower of your blogs for many years and have always been in awe of you and Karl's devotion to each other. I cried reading your messages today, I've come to care for you guys a lot.

I wish there was something I could say to make it better...but you guys are in my thoughts and prayers...
Amy

Cheri G. said...

I am still coming here every day to read an update. I care, I really do care. I am worried about the boys. They always seemed to be doing something with dad. How are they doing?

Cheri
Olympia, WA

tcsTenor said...

I don't really know what to write... this is just so not fair for your family to be going through the loss of your man. I have cried with you as I read your words and my heart aches for you, Kim and your children. Please know you are in my daily thoughts and prayers.
Much Love,
Robin in TX

Amanda said...

Kim

I just want to say how shocked and sorry we were to hear of your family's horrible loss. I don't even know what to say except that our hearts go out to you and your children at this tragic time. Please accept our deepest condolences.

With love from Amanda Uhry (Arabella's mom)

Melissa Kennedy, NC said...

Kim, I am so sorry. I have been coming to your blog for years and was shocked when I read the news. Just want you guys to know you are in my thoughts and prayers. May the memories you have bring you comfort during this difficult time.

tammy weston said...

Dear Kim & family, I am so so sorry for your loss. The few times that Lacie & I got to hang out with you guys are so special to us! Lacie thought the world of Karl. You mentioned small trinkets, the little pin he sent to Lacie years ago is still so precious to her. I will be praying for you & the K-kids. We love you friends!

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you! And Praying everyday for you to find peace...

Remember to *breathe*

Brandi N.

Anonymous said...

Just want you to know I am thinking of you, will never stop....

Hold on tight to those memories, Kim, they are what will get you through the really tough days.

Hugs from Minnesota
Kris

Acutescrubnurse said...

Kim, no need to apologize for not updating your blog...you need your time to mourn, take care of your self. I have not updated my blog since Oct, I'm just lazy!!
I'm sure your days are long, nights even longer....remember that you have soooooo many friends out there that love you and have been praying for you and your family for so long, and we will never stop!! You are in my thoughts and prayers more then EVER before. I only wish we could all live closer to you.....
Hugs, and lots of comfort!!
Rita

Lori said...

Kim high I sent you text on your phone but not sure you got it or not I did not get response really worried about you and the kids. Lori

Kerrie said...

(((Kim)))

I found your blog via another and the tears have come reading about you and your Vinny.

I am so very, very sorry...I understand some of your pain. My partner lost his beloved wife a number of years ago now after a brief illness, leaving him with two boys to raise. She was pregnant with their third son when she died.

Please know I am holding you and your family close to my heart. I will bookmark your blog and check in to offer support.

Again, I am so, so sorry.

Warmest regards,

Kerrie

Dagmar said...

I'm so, so sorry to read about your loss. This must be so hard since there was no warning at all. Keeping you and the kids in my prayers.

Dagmar
Dagmar's momsense

Anonymous said...

Kim, I just came across your site and have read just a little, but I wanted to leave you a comment letting you know I am praying for you. The pain you and your family are going through is unfathomable and I am praying for your strength to get through this together. When you see your children and family I hope that you will see a piece of Vinny. That his memories will live on forever in your heart. No doubt it will take a long time of grieving to feel even a small bit of peace but I am praying for a bit of calmness in your heart and quietness in your mind. Hugs to you.
-Anna

Nikki said...

Kim, my heart breaks for you and your family.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Sending love from Australia xx

Anonymous said...

Kim, I've followed your blog and Kody for about 7 years. I've come to know and love your family. When I checked yesterday, I was so shocked. This has really upset me. I feel like I have lost a member of my own family. I pray for you and your family to find the strength you need to get through this. It won't be easy, but I've seen your strength and you have an awesome family. You will get through this. My heart felt prayers are with you.

Kelly said...

Kim,

I have been following you for many years- since Kody was so sick. I am shocked beyond words to read this horrible news. My heart aches for you. It just doesn't seem fair. You and your family have overcome so much and then to have something this tragic happen... Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Squirt and Squeakers Mama said...

I've sat here for a few minutes with my fingers just sitting on the keys... "I'm so sorry for your loss," those words feel kinda empty right now, I know. My father passed away two weeks before Thanksgiving, so I have a small inkling of what you're going through right now, but I think only my mother would truly understand what you're dealing with. They were married for over 40 years

Please know that those who really have no idea who you are love you with God's love and will commit to pray for you. And those who simply don't know what to say, but that they're sorry, love you too and will do whatever they can to help (me, too, if you want to contact me!). I can only encourage you from afar right now, that God loves you and cares for you, and even now He's working to bring about His plans for you even in this situation. And, I'm sure there are people just standing by, just waiting to know that you need something, anything.

I'm gonna post this before I chicken out, but please remember that you're loved, even by complete strangers.

Anonymous said...

Just checking in on you, and to let you know that I'm thinking about you....
Liz, NY

Anonymous said...

Kim, You don't know me, I clicked on your blog from the MckMama comment section. My heart aches for you. If I could, I would reach right through this laptop and put my arms around you or tuck you into bed and sing you into a deep and dream filled sleep. Your loss is far beyond anything that I have experienced but I am very familiar with Caringbridge and know of horrific loss. My mother died exactly one year to the day before your husband and I have now passed that one year mark. I would have given anything to have that one more day with her on that anniversary but I would never wish that first year on anyone, including myself. You need and deserve to have every bit of love and support that you can get. LET people love ands take care of you and take care of yourself. Be very gentle with yourself. You have beautiful memories of a beautiful life with someone who you loved and who loved you. Your spiritual connection will always be there and he will let you know that he is still with you. It is so HARD to stay here when our loved one has gone on without us but stay we have to do and I promise you, you can do it. One minute, one second at a time, you will do it. You are not alone! My heart goes out to you and from this moment on, you and your family are in my heart and in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Just thinking of you all... Hope you are finding some peace tonight.

-Jaime in CT

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