You know, last night I decided that I was too hard on my bil.
So...with that in mind...
I have my very last messge to ya Kev..
I realize that you had a rough life growing up and all. You were the middle child in a big family who didn't exactly have all things grand going for them.
That can do alot to ruin a self esteem.
The only time I saw you happy is when you were with "S". Too bad that never worked out.
For quite sometime you've been about as annoying as ear wax., which in the grand scheme of life, all things considered, isn't too bad at all.
As I sat around last night thinking things over, I had this thought..a brillant thought.
I could just picture you sitting there seething everyday, checking out your brothers family blog, jumping at anything to crap apon.
My thought was make amends, to apologize, to say sorry, to wish you well.
I know telling me my grandaughter looks retarded, that my son looks like a crackhead, that my daughter is a scanky whore and that my son with brain cancer is stupid and blind seems funny to you . Whatever. If you think your disrrupting my day...I have to be honest with ya...your not.
Everytime you decide to check in I think about your family visiting us and laughing when they talked of how miserable you are {I mean come on..how could I possibly know everything I know if it weren't for your family}, your Dad's letters he's sent here apologizing for his son's behaviour {dont believe me, I'll copy them and mail them to you}, I feel the need to...
1. Run to Starbucks for a frappachino
2. Shop for new shoes
3. Roll my eyes
4. Laugh
5. Do a good deed.
6. Get on with my day
Everytime you talk about your body parts I feel the need to..
1. Hurl
2. Dream of living in Italy
3. Lock myself in a closet and sort out my shirts by color
4. Go back to bed
Everytime you threaten my daughter I feel the need to..
1. Contact her asap so she can call the local police.
Everytime I see a new message from you I feel the need to..
1. Yawn
2. Do laundry
3. See what's on TV
4. Ride in the family mini van with the windows down and the radio up loud.
Everytime I feel you've wasted more energy on me I feel..
1. I am not worthy
2. Inclined to have an even better day
3. Warm and fuzzy all over.
4. Doing three more good deeds.
OK...so this is like my last message to you, although I know with being a middle child..you love the attention.
But with myself being the oldest child..I am always, like never at a lose for words, but get bored easily.
So...with that, I just want you to know from the bottom of my heart that I wish you well in life, I really hope things go super good for you.
I hope you win the lottery, be loved, be admired, be respected, become a grandparent, and above all..I hope at the end of each day you can go to bed knowing you've made a positive difference in someones life.
I will be thinking of you everyday and of course will alway include your happiness in my prayers.
May your Christmas be cheerful and 2008 be spent happy and above all healthy.
Cheers..
Kim