Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Time to Say Good-Bye

I've been putting much thought into stopping this blog.
Most of you know me on Facebook now, and are always fully updated on the madness of my life.
Probably on Jan. 1st.
Honestly, there are not many views a day, maybe 30-60 and comments are far and few in between.
I want to say a huge thank you for those of you who still choose to check in, I appreciate it so much.

My life has had so many changes lately...
and also a new relationship.
I don't want to hurt in any way Karl's family because of this, so I think it would be better kept private.
I do need to say this though,
Karl was my very first and will ALWAYS be my biggest love, he and I, I am 100% positive, are soulmates...bound by love here on Earth and for all eternity.
It is him I will always be with.

That being said, I do have someone in my life who has brought life back into my very slowing dying self.
He loves me unconditionally and it feels good again, not the same...but a new kind of love.

This has made waves in my family, some accept this, some never will.
But, like I say, at the end of the day you all have someone to hold, someone that loves you and will get you through the worst days and nights.
I can't do this alone...it's too lonely and to depressing.
I find myself smiling, laughing and having fun with him.
But...he is a OTR truck driver and so as it is...I'm still alone a lot, never really alone though, because of technology we talk all the time and never a night goes by that his is not the last voice I hear.

It's good though, it works for us.
It allows me the space I still need as grieving never really ends, does it?

Anyway...more changes are around the corner, Kyle comes home this month. Our very first Christmas as almost a whole. Well, I suppose it is our "whole" now. We can't bring the man we love most back...so, we'll be together for the first time in five years...my children, my grandchildren and my crazy dog Miko.

Thank you again everyone..I'll post a few more times between now and then, it has been an absolute joy and pleasure knowing all of you, whether personally or through the internet.

Love you all!!!!!!

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29 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry to see the blog end but I completely understand. It has been a priviledge to watch your family over the years. Don't you think Karl had a hand in sending you a new love? I do. I really believe he's been with you all along and he would want you to be happy. It's very exciting that Kyle is coming home. I wish you all a very happy Christmas.

Mary

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Anonymous said...

I'm very happy that you've found someone. I pray that your family will someday accept that life does continue. You will always grieve your loss, but I'm sure your Karl wants you to have someone in your life to make you feel content. Prayers to you and yours for a warm and joyous holiday season!

Cindy Forrester

Susantwilhelm said...

Understand your need to stop, but have so enjoyed watching your family grow, praying for Kody during his illness, greiving with you. But life moves on

Leeann said...


I don't think that you should ever apologize for having a new relationship. It's a blessing. I'm sorry that there are people who are having trouble adapting to the idea.

I sincerely wish you all the best.

Sherry Vasquez said...

Kim,I really will miss your blog,and I know I should comment when I read your posts but I don't write as easily as you.LOL I talk better in person.So I apologize for that. I have prayed for you and your family and I am very happy that you have found someone who can make you smile and laugh again.I am so glad your kids will be reunited at Christmas.I do so love your pictures and hearing about your la vida loca.Please reconsider, I think alot of people will miss you!If not I hope I can reconnect with you on Facebook.Thank-you Kim for sharing yourself and your life.You are a beautiful person and deserve a happy life!Sherry

Anonymous said...

I'm really going to miss your blog. I've been reading it for about 9 years... So sad, but I understand.

-Jessie

Sally said...

I have never posted anything to you before but I have followed your blog for years now, first finding it when my son was diagnosed with Leukaemia, that was in 2004. I visit your blog everyday and enjoy your updates and will be very sorry to see it end but can understand your reasons for it.
I am happy that you have found a new love, life must go on and I'm sure Karl had a hand in sending this man to you,:)
I wish all the 'K' family a very happy christmas and a happy healthy new year.

Anonymous said...

I am so happy for you and now will find you on fb. I will miss your blog as I have followed it forever. Love your family.

We were Kimora Simmons fans...my lil red headed grandson now 5 was born around the time of your granddaughter.

Much love to you all, Karl is smiling I am sure, he would want you to be happy.
xo~Cris Eddy

tammy weston said...

Love you Kim! And I am so happy for you! I will see you on Facebook :)

Miss Judy said...

Ok Kim. I don't do facebook, but now I guess I'm just gonna hafta! I've been reading your blog for so long it's become a part of me! In the beginning it was mostly about Kody, but it's become more than that. I'm so glad you've found someone else to love, and I, too, believe Karl had a hand in that! I know he's watching out for you from above. I sincerely hope that you and all the family have a wonderful Christmas and a Glorious New Year!! God Bless all of you.
Hugs and Blessings,
Judy

Anonymous said...

I've been secretly following your blog for almost seven years. I started with Caringbridge because I had a dear friend who was battling leukemia. I started clicking here and clicking there and I came upon your adorable son Kody. I remember distinctly him photographed in his pink shirt with your caption "Real Men Wear Pink." I loved it! I have followed your family for so long I feel I know you all. I will be very sad to see you stop blogging but I do understand. Is there a possibility of updating a couple of times a year? I also so enjoy your photography. If I didn't live across the U.S. from you I'd contract you in an instant. Best wishes to you and your new love and the rest of your family....

juliacosner@gmail.com

Amy K said...

Beautiful words! Of course I'll see you over on Facebook.

fingerprints said...

Although I started reading your blog after finding Kody's CB site and appreciated your photography, I will miss this blog.I have enjoyed watching your family evolve and grow up and change - some good and some horribly difficult (I didn't enjoy that part but admired how you handled it).

I pray the LORD JESUS will be able to give you peace and strength thru all the changes - particularly Kyle. May GOD touch his spirit and make it strong for HIM.

JD

Anonymous said...

Kim - I certainly understand but have to tell you I will miss coming here! Been following Kody since caring bridge and now I feel like part of the family even though we've never met. I do follow you on Facebook so I'll see you there. Thank you for sharing your lives with us here. Terri G, Russellville, Arkansas

Anonymous said...

The best of luck...it is all about moving forward. Sounds like you are doing just that!

Anonymous said...

Kim....please do not discontinue this blog.... I am a silent reader of your blog all the way from Minnesota.... I came to your site through Katia the lady bug.....I have been following your blog and your son's site previously for years.... and you are my inspiration...sometimes my reason to get up in the day....please reconsider...... I will be lost without you. You are such a strong woman and fighter. I do not follow you on fb..... I can not find you... please help.... lisaannherold@gmail.com

Anonymous said...

I too have read your blog longer than i want to admit, I started on kody's original caring bridge page and have wept and cried and been overflowed with joy for you and your family. It's wierd to write it down and admit that you are following someone's life that you don't know and that does not know you. it's sort of my dirty little secret. We will miss you! My thoughts will always be with the "K" family!

Anonymous said...

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Cheryl said...

You don't know me but I have followed your story for a long while. Love,love,love seeing pics of your handsome guys and following your journey. I am so happy you have found new love and even though you can never fill the void left when you lost your soul-mate, you can enjoy life again. Blessing to you and yours...now go live life to the fullest and make new memories!

Anonymous said...

Been following Kody since he been I think 10 maybe earlier...one of my friends ask me to pray for him when he was in the hospital. I check from time to to to see how he is doing. Will you still do updates on Kody if needed?

Good Luck ...and bless your family!

tricia said...

i will miss you. i have been a long time follower and an occasional commenter. i dont do facebook so sadly i say goodbye

Susie M. said...

Been a silent follower also from caringbridge. Wishing you and your family all the happiness this life has to offer!!! Hope to find you on facebook!

Anonymous said...

I have been following your blog for years as I found Kody through another caringbridge friend. I also have a Cody and always found myself thinking and praying for your Kody and family. So very happy to see you find happiness again! Please don't ever let someone make you feel guilty for finding love! I don't know you or your beloved Vinny, but I am sure he would want you to be happy. I pray you continue to find peace and happiness!

Cheyenne said...

Awwww...I am going to miss your blogging. Love the photos and the stories about the kids etc. I don't visit Facebook all that often but I guess I will have to try harder.
May all your Christmas wishes come true, and I hope you and your family have a great time despite the fact that one important member is missing...but he is watching over all of you.
Kim, life is too short...enjoy it while you can and to hell with what others say. Nobody's happy unless you are happy...

annieb said...

wah - I am going to miss your blog - totally understand...so happy you are starting a new chapter. I totally just sent you a friend request on FB - I would so miss you, your sweet family and your photography

Anonymous said...

Noooo! Don't go! I have followed you for many years and I thank you for allowing me that privilege! I wish you well and much happiness. You are beautiful person and deserve nothing but unconditional love. I will miss reading about you and your "Krazy" family ;)

Brandy Edwards said...

Kim, I am married to an OTR driver. It takes a strong woman to be with an OTR driver, whether you are dating him or married to him. I have friends and family ask me ALL the time, how can you be at your house alone. It works like you said. We need our space. As much as we love each other and we will be together 9 years a month from yesterday, we need our space. My husband is only home 2x a month, sometimes 3 depending how many weeks is in a month. Just wanted to say I completely understand where you say it works :)

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry you feel you need to close the blog.. I love to see your pictures and read about your family.
I'm sure Karl wouldn't want you to be alone for the rest of your life..don't beat yourself up. Life is, as you know, way too short. I'll try to find you on facebook because I have followed your family since the boys were young.
Katy myers

Anonymous said...

Oh Kim, I will miss you, the blog, your photography, and the K-klan. I have had so many issues with my cable company and thought of you and Karl first thing this morning and am lucky that the computer is up today. I don't do facebook either so I guess this will be good bye after years of following your family. I hope the best for you and your new someone. God Bless You and the family and sweet little Miko.

I will check in here and there just to see if you update on Kody. God Bless Kody and all K's.

God Bless You,
Debby from Ohio

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