A Wedding

Today my lil' brother is getting married.
Why does it always sound so good when you send back the RSVP?
"Yes, we would love to attend...can't wait...sounds beautiful".
Then that damn reality smacks me right back in the face way too early this morning.
Happy couples, couples dancing, couple holding hands, couples eating dinner together, couples laughing.
See a pattern here?
Shit...
I barely made it through the royal wedding yesterday and I was alone in my living room for that.

I seriously can't wait for April to be over. :(

No Words Needed

The picture says it all. :(



*boys releasing their Dad to the ocean*

Happy Easter

From all of us in the Kruppenbacher family...

We wish you all a very Happy and Blessed Easter.

Almost Easter

Here we go again, another holiday.

Sometimes it almost doesn't seem real, it sure as heck never feels normal.
Four months yesterday he left us. Today I need to shop for Easter dinner for the first time ever without him.
I went and took the boys out for some pictures last night, he would have been there for that {he was always worried someone would try and steal the camera...lol}.

Anyway, here we go again, another holiday to try and get through. Probably a good thing I will have a house full of family this year, keeping busy before the dreaded nighttime crash is always good.

Here's my baby boy, Kolin...



Not so much a baby anymore, he's about as tall as Kody now. :)

And here's Bear...



The two of them together, which in real life is common but in pictures where their not goofing, rare these days...



Someone once told me that I have to stop asking, begging and praying for him to stop coming around, that he will never "rest/cross over/be in peace/accomplish his new heavenly job" if I do.
I don't believe this at all.
I believe we are a part of his Heaven and letting us know that he is still here with us is just as important as any Heavenly job he has anyway.
Besides, the guy only ever truly rested when he was home anyway. :)

Have a great day everyone!!

The Ocean He Loved

A beautiful sunset for a beautiful husband & Daddy.



This was where we released some of Karl's ashes last night, back to the ocean that he loved so much.
I can honestly say with all my heart, it was bittersweet, heart breaking and so incredibly beautiful all at the same time.
I let the boys go first, I wanted to try and snap a quick picture, I wanted to remember that one quick second when they kissed their Dad good-bye and let him fly gracefully into the sea.
It was painful to watch, yet I knew I had to.

I went after they did, alone...one final moment, one final anniversary, one last kiss and with our wedding song playing in the background I released him into the water and into the sunset.
It was amazing, his ashes spread into the air and then landed in the water like sparkling diamonds. It was perfect, it was beautiful and it is a memory that I will keep in my heart forever.

My Vinny, he was with us yesterday, he was with me all day but he gave us a sure sign he was right there on the beach with us all day.

The boys had gone off and taken a walk out to the pier and I was was hanging around just chillin' on my beach chair, soaking in the sun and thoroughly loving the cool breeze. I had the radio on next to me and was thinking about him when I said out loud "Vinny, if you are here with me right now please baby let me know,leave me a song on teh radio if you could".
Don't you just know it, "Life is Beautiful" by Six AM came right on.
Now, you would have to know that he LOVED this song, I mean really really loved it. He would blast it every time it came on and months before he passed, he would tell all of us every single time that when he died he wanted that song played at his funeral.
Just so you know, it was played many times at his funeral. :)

When the boys came back I told them about it and Kolin and I left for a few minutes, Kody stayed behind. When we came back he was so happy because he asked his Dad the same thing and Metallica's "Master of Puppets" came on.
LOL..that was Kody and Karl's rock out song, they LOVED that song and would literally make the walls in our house shake when it was on.

As we were walking to our spot where we were going to release his ashes, Kolin found a four leafed clover.
Florida doesn't have four leafed clovers that we know of, we have been looking for 12 years and never found one. He did and it is safely pressed in between the pages of a book called "Never Say Good-Bye".

This morning I received yet another gift from him, I opened up my Facebook and I have tiny red hearts falling all over it. LOL, I just couldn't believe it, I never put hearts on there and nobody knows my password, I've checked with all my friends and nobody has hearts floating down on their FB.
Another sign from my true love? Yes, I do believe with all my heart.
I love that man so, so, so very much. :)

Have a beautiful day everyone.

Our 31st Anniversary

Happy Anniversary to the most beautiful, most loved man that ever walked this planet.

I love you so much Vin, a million times more then I did 31 years ago, more and more everyday.
I hope you can still feel that love, I will keep it in my heart forever.

Today, as my gift to us, the boys and I are heading out after school to our favorite beach.
At sunset we will be releasing some of your ashes into the ocean that you loved so much.
Then we're going to hit up Little Ceaser's for a "Hot & Ready Pepperoni Pizza", cuz we know you loved that too. :)
Stay with me today Baby. I miss you and I love you so much.
Faith...Hope & Love.
Forever yours, "Izzy"

Although I had gotten this in February, I thought today would be a great day to unveil it.
This was taken a few week after so it's healed but not 100% completely.
I will always carry "My Vinny" with me forever on the back of my right shoulder.



Karl/Vinny, he told me everyday many times a day that he loved me. I would give up my own life to hear those words again from him.
It is impossible for me, so as a tribute to our anniversary wouldn't it be great if everyone looked into the eyes of their spouse/boyfriend/girlfriend and said to them a simple and honest "I love you".
Those are three priceless words I can never hear again, but you can.
Do it for me, no....do it for Vinny, as we all know, tomorrow is not a promise, don't let today get away. :)

Have a beautiful day everyone.

Bunny Hat 4 Sale

Just putting this out there today, if anyone is interested.

Hat is a size NB-6 months.
I photographed this baby in it last weekend, she is 4 months old and smaller then an average 4 month old {she was a preemie}.
However, the hat will stretch to a 6 months.



It was worn for less then 5 minutes.

$15.00 {includes shipping}

Let me know.
sparkly929@gmail.com

Thanks!!

Kody is at his Way of the Warrior martial arts training today, it's gonna be a busy all day event and since we won't be home till tonight, I'll wish you all a beautiful day.

TTYL!!!