Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Good-Bye Daddy

This is all I have left, grieving children and a hole in my heart so deep.

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This is the poem we picked for his prayer card {I think that's what it's called, not sure}

May you always walk in sunshine and God's love around you flow,
for the happiness you gave us, no one will ever know.
It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone, a part of us went with you the day God called you home.
A million times we've needed you, a million times we've cried.
If love could only have saved you, you never would have died.
The Lord be With You
And may You Rest In Peace
Amen


Thank you everyone for your kinds words, support and encouragement.
I am hoping this blog will help me to heal, I don't know. I am just still so stunned and in deep mourning for the most beautiful man that God ever put on this planet.
I will wait for him until the end of my time.

***I love you My Vinny***


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63 comments:

Marci Connell said...

Praying for you all Kim. Praying time heals the pain but I cant imagine the sadness and shock of this all. I try to put myself in your shoes and just cry picturing it. I love you and am here anytime you want to talk. Love ya

Anonymous said...

Kim and kids, I am so deeply sorry for your loss, its a confusing and terrible tragedy that no loving family should ever have to face. God Bless you all.
Donna, Ny.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you to be able to get some rest, im sure sleep is hard to come by these days. I will never understand why bad things happen to good people.

Anonymous said...

Thinking and praying for all of you. Mary T. and family

Cheri G. said...

That picture breaks my heart! To see the kids crying like that, it is heart breaking. I lost my dad suddenly from a heart attack when I was 20. I know the feeling of not being prepared for it. We also took pictures, and I still have them tucked in my underwear drawer. Please know I am thinking of all of you! I am still in shock, although not like your family is, when I went to the blog. Your family is the 2nd family that I know that had a sudden wreck that took the dad of the family. My friend lives on the east coast and her hubby was driving to work at 7 AM and swerved and hit head on with another car and they also both died. I am so, so, sorry for all of you.

Cheri
Olympia, WA
kody blog follower

Lori said...

Kim and family again so sorry I am praying non stop for your family. Was Kyle able to be there he has been on my mind God love you again if I can do anything let me know. Lori

Anonymous said...

Wishing you strength and comfort...

Anonymous said...

What a heartbreaking photo. Children that age should never lose a parent. Your Vinny was loved dearly by his family and his wife. He was a very lucky man to be loved so much in life.

Prayers and hugs to all of you,
Connie F-G
LaVista NE

Anonymous said...

I cry for you and your children. Know you have lots of prayers.
I can't imagine and I can only hope time will make it easier.

What a real picture, full of real emotion and obvious love...heartbreaking.
I am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

Oh Kim and the rest of the K Krew,

I just came to your site and am in shock. My heart hurts for you and the kids, I honestly don't know what else to say. I am so sorry for your loss and sickened to what has happened to such a beautiful, caring, wonderful family!! I will continue to keep you all in my prayers. I hope this blog will help you to heal it's obvious you have a big support system here and we will all be here for you when you are ready to vent, scream, cry and even laugh again. Know that we all love the K family!!

Hugs from Missouri,
Jill

Kendall said...

Oh Kim that's a picture that is beautiful and haunting at the same time.

As for what you are left with, I hope someday you can see what all of us outside the K family can see........ that you are left with a lifetime of memories filled with love and laughs that helped all of you to overcome so many obstacles that would have derailed the strongest of families----yet your family, with you and Karl at the helm remain intact.

How many other people brag about a 30 year marriage that survived the beat down of several demons including cancer (more than once), alcohol, family interference, financial woes, and major challenges with your children?

Lesser things have torn strong families apart yet you and Karl managed to always find a way to make sure these things didn't result in defeat. Instead you used the power of your love for each other and your children to thwart every threat to your happiness. And you continued to use that love and added laughter with a strong dose of honesty when contending with difficult consequences.

More often than not I have found myself envying the world you and Karl built..........but Kim, although I never met the man, I am confident that Karl would agree that YOU are the heart of your family. The strong, neurotic, silly, crazy, loving, proud, hormonal, patient, nurturing matriarch..........the glue that holds the family together.

Draw on the strength your kids inherited from their Daddy, but keep your family's heart beating by leading them through this dark time by using the same tools you used to endure through the other dark times.

Love, laughter, and commitment.

And this time know that even though you can't see him Karl is still there. And he has the strength of heaven at his back this time. He will make sure that you, Karyelle, Kayara, Kyle James, Kaysha, Kody, and Kollin come through this stronger and more solid than ever.

And when you are back in the light once again, you will know that you have with so much more than you can allow yourself to see today.

XXOO To all of you.

rocketbear said...

My heart is just breaking for yall. I keep checking in to see how yall are doing and wish there was something I could do to help. The only thing I can say is that grief this deep comes from a love that deep. ((hugs))

Anonymous said...

My heart breaks for you and your beautiful family. I have followed Kody since you started Caring Bridge, but have only commented a handful of times. I find myself praying for you and the kids through out my day. You guys have been on mind everyday this last week. I am so very sorry for your loss.

Kim Cyr said...

The picture says it all...You can FEEL the loss just by looking at Kyle's face:( so so sorry for you all..not fair at all!!!

JustJn said...

oh kim, the pain on the kids face's is just unbearable. having 6 kids myself, i can't imagine what they're going thru. i followed kody's journey for so long, from caringbridge to here, and i never imagined something so awful for such an amazing family. all i can do is say i am sorry and send love from az.

Shiela in NY said...

Again, my tears flow for you and your children. :(

Thinking of you so much...

paxton said...

i'm so sad for you guys. i can't even imagine what it feels like. i've been praying for you and the whole k family. i love you guys.

-paxton

Lynn said...

Oh Kim, it just breaks my heart to see these beautiful faces in so much pain. :"( Over the years I have watched these beautiful faces portrayed in your hundreds and hundreds of shared pictures, growing up strong and happy... NEVER have I seen them in such pain and it makes me cry right now, to see it. :"(

That's not Karl. He is alive and well. That is the shell that housed HIM all these years.. the 'tent' he occupied here on earth. He will have a brand new one in heaven that is perfect, whole, complete.
Karlio my friend, you are so loved!

God bless and comfort this precious family.

Love you Ks'
Lynn

Anonymous said...

OMG, Kim!!! I keep coming back to see if there are any updates. You have all been on my mind all day...with everything I do. I really can't believe the horrible news...and you must feel like it's all a terrible nightmare. I'm so sorry you all have to deal with it all. Please know I'm thinking of all of you...and praying for peace.....
Liz, NY

Anonymous said...

That is such a heartbreaking picture, especially poor little Kolin, who is only 13 yrs old. I am so terribly sorry.

Dot O said...

I haven't stopped praying for all of you.....

tricia said...

I am so shocked,terribly sad and pray for all of you

Cheyenne said...

Kim, this is just one more thing I cannot comprehend. I cannot make any sense of it. I just don't understand why it happened. Your family is like family to a lot of us. You all are so very real(through your words and pictures) and when you all hurt, we all hurt. Please know that you are continually in my prayers, and that hopefully time will heal your hurt.

Anonymous said...

Oh Kim,

The picture is so beautiful, yet like someone else said haunting as well.

My heart just tore in two from the look on Kolin's face. His pain says it all, all I want to do is reach through the screen and hug him and never let him go.

I recently lost my dad, just last year and he was Karl's age so I know what your kids are going through....and the road they will be traveling. It's a very bumpy road, with many hills....but I can promise the kids that although they will always miss their father and there will always be a hole in their heart, they will be able to look back at the memories of him and smile and laugh again. It takes time and tell them not to be surprise if they are having some good days and they hear something or see something that reminds them of their father and the tears come rushing back. It's all NORMAL and a part of the HEALING! Even knowing what your family is going through is opening up some of my wounds from my father's death :(

Right now, you all just need to allow yourselves to grieve, how ever that may be. Kim, I think this blog will help you with healing....use it to say anything you want, let it be your "safe haven"

Kim, I truly wish I had some magic words for you. I just keep coming back here wanting to say something but nothing really comes to mind. I guess there really is nothing to say, just giving you my love and my prayers even if we never met.

You have SO many people praying for you and your family. Hold on tight to your memories with Karl, the good, the bad and all in between......

Please tell your children people are truly praying for their comfort. I can't seem to get your family off of my mind.

Wish I had some words to take away all the pain.....all I can say is I am truly sorry your family is going through this :(

Love from Minnesota
Kris

Anonymous said...

Kim, my heart goes out to you and your family.I know by reading your blog how much you loved "Vinny".You are thought about and prayers are for you for strength.May the Love you all have for each other give you comfort.Hugs from afar I hope you can feel them.Someone who cares in Hemet.Sherry <3

Debby said...

Kim,

I feel so compelled to keep checking up on you and the kids. What a heartbreaking photo. The pain on your kids faces, especially Kolin's just makes my heart ache so much. I am so sorry for your tragic loss. Please know that your extended family out here that you have never met is praying for you all and sending our love to you and your kids. I hope that Kyle was able to come home to say his Good Bye to his loving dad.

Prayers & hugs,
Debby in Avon, OH

Kendall said...

One of my facebook friends posted tis on her profile tonight, Kim. Somehow I think that if Karl could make you hear him this is what he would say.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6eCYb0X9iqM

Anonymous said...

Crying with you all. Kolin's sweet, sad face breaks my heart in two. I'm so sorry. I am praying for you guys.
~ kim waggoner in TN

Robin said...

So very sorry. My thoughts are with you all during this difficult time. Truly no words seem appropriate.

Lynn said...

Thinking of you all so often and praying for you during this difficult time.

Sea52Jay said...

Thinking of you tonight, knowing that last night was so hard on you and probably today is worse. I am so glad you ended up with houseful of people. Kody told me the one good thing that came out of this is that it brought the family closer together and that his Dad would have liked that. I know only time will help stop some of the ache but I hope you can look back on these posts one day and see how loved you are and that so many people care. Hugs and love, CJ

Anonymous said...

Dear K Family:
I am so sorry for your loss. So very sad. We keep you in our prayers and thoughts daily. Many, many hugs from Canada.
Michelle

Susantwilhelm said...

My heart hearts. I wish I had words. I don't. All I can offer at this time, are my prayers. I have been praying for your family since Caringbridge, and this tragedy just hits me in the heart. Hugs and much love my friends!

Cathy Bowman said...

Kim and kids,
I wish I could come down there and pick you all up and just hold you and take all of your pain away. I know that is not possible. So, I am holding all of you close to my heart and praying and thinking about you all constantly. I care for you all so much even though you have never met me. I broke down crying last night just reading your post Kim. Hang in there. You are a wonderful, beautiful person inside and out. I know Karl was as well that is how you got 6 awesome, gorgeous, sweet children that any Mom would be proud of. God Bless YOu <3

Jeannie Ford said...

K Family, I am so sorry for your loss..I will keep you in my prayers through this difficult time. Your family has so much love..I know that karl (Vinnie) will keep his hands on you. Love and Prayers from Missouri...

britta said...

So not fair

My heart breaks for you and your kids

Many prayers for your family

Anonymous said...

I Am Sorry So For your Lose. When I read what happened the Other day. I cried For your Family & Couldnt find any words as I was Shocked & Just, Well I Could not believe it. I have thought about your family daily. And when I came back on tonight to see how you were all doing I was Oh so sad. The Picture as Was stated earlier is so very Sad, Beautiful and yes haunting. The hurt in your childrens faces : ( , Karl (Vinny) looks so peaceful. I have Commented before & Have followed your Blog & Kody's For a Long time. Please accept my Condolences in your time of mourning. I wish I could take away all of your pain.

Mom2AnAngel

Anonymous said...

I too would like to express my sincere condolences on your family's loss. Although you do not know me, I am truly touched by such a tragic loss of two lives especially so very close to Christmas, my prayers are with you. To his children and grandchildren, may you find peace and comfort in knowing you are his living legacy.... his blood is your blood and without him none of you would be here and may each of you live your lives to make him even more proud. And remember the words of Winnie the Pooh: "If ever there is a tomorrow when we're not together...there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart.... I'll always be with you." May you feel God wrap his arms around you and hold you tight, He is grieving with you.

pmandich74 said...

Kim and kids, I like so many others have you on my mind all the time. My heart is so broken for you. Kim, you are one of the strongest women I have ever known but know that we are all here for you now with all of our love and prayers. God bless each of you!

Anonymous said...

I just came on to see how the K's Christmas was and was SHOCKED beyound belief to see the devastating news of Karls tragic passing..My thoughts and prayers are with all of you during what must be the most difficult time in your lives. Take comfort in knowing that one day you will be reunited with him. R.I.P Karl :(

Deneen said...

Kim and Kids, OMG, You have my deepest condolences. I have not been on since before the hustle and bustle of the holidays. My heart skipped a beat, I lost my breath when I read the news. Tears are pouring down my eyes. God love ya all. I have been following all of you since 2001. You all are like family. If you need to write or talk. I will give you my phone number. Take care of each other... All my Love Deneen, PA

Michele Neff Hernandez said...

Dear Kim, A friend of yours sent me the link to your blog. My heart is aching for you and your family. My prayer is that the love you share sustains you through the coming days and wraps you in warmth when you need it most.

I want you to know that you are not alone. There is a community of widowed people who have suffered through the loss of their partners and continue to walk side by side through the life ahead. You will find a large variety of resources that may be of help, other widowed bloggers (One Breath at a Time on blogspot is written by the mother of six children whose husband died unexpectedly just before Christmas three years ago), and a variety of programs we created to connect widowed people and battle the isolation of grief. (www.sslf.org) Please feel free to contact me if I can be of any help at all to you and your family. My husband died five years ago in a cycling accident and I wish that my experience could provdie you with some shortcut through all this pain. But the best advice anyone gave me is to be gentle with yourself and take each minute, hour or day at a time. Know that you are held close in thought and prayer.

Yours in hope,

Michele

Lori said...

Kim I hope you don't mind but I got in touch with a few people that will be able to help you and the family here is the email I got from them. Love Lori

Thank you so much for letting me know about this family's loss. My heart aches for all of them. I am assuming if you found us through Matt's site that you also found the Liz Logelin Foundation? There is an application process for financial help, but I think this family would have a good chance to receive some support. I will forward this onto the Director of LLF, and have already left a comment on Kim's blog.

Your kindness in seeking help for this family will be a blessing to them. Thank you.

Yours in hope,

Michele



Michele Neff Hernandez
Executive Director
Soaring Spirits Loss Foundation
2828 Cochran St. #194
Simi Valley, Ca 93065
877-671-4071 ext 706
www.sslf.org

Anonymous said...

I am deeply sorry for your tragic loss. No words will make it better...but know there are quite literally MILLIONS of people out there praying for you and your family. May it help to ease your hearts through this difficult journey.

A fan of the K-Klan from Dallas, TX

kristi said...

praying.......

Anonymous said...

The words in my heart can't get past the lump in my throat. I am so sorry, Kim.


Jackie in PA.

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog for years now, and I just checked in tonight for the first time in a few days. I was completely shocked to read that Karl had died. I'm sitting here in front of my computer in total disbelief, with tears running down my face.

I am so, so sorry. Hugs to you and all of your kids.

-M.

Maloy said...

It is so, so, SO sad to you guys like that. I've seen Kolin laughing, smiling, fooling around, frowning, pouting, but never crying. It takes a lot of love and grief to make a brave kid cry. THIS IS SO F*CKING UNFAIR!!!

Love you lots guys. Be strong!

Leo

Anonymous said...

Read through your story and it is indeed a beautiful one. I am so sorry for your loss. I know everyone is shaken to their very core of meaning and nothing is making sense right now. And boy oh boy is life not fair. Terrible things do happen to good people. I am praying for some peace for all of you.

Lori said...

Good morning Kim and Kids, I just wanted to let you know you know you are still in my thoughts and prayers. I was wondering do you and children have any needs right now? In case you don't remember me I made you and Kody a bunch of little icon tags for your web sites a coffee one and skate board for kody. My heart is breaking for you. I have contacted many that will be able to help if you would prefer I not do this please let me know ASAP at lstrevels@aol.com or 863-860-4782. Sending you much love and hugs. Lori

Anonymous said...

So sorry..... still praying for you all!

no words....

Brandi N.

Anonymous said...

How beautifully put, Kendall.
You have a way with words...

Kim, you are the glue, please be strong...

Brandi N.

Kendall said...

Kim & Family,

I'm still thinking of all of you often and wish you health and healing in 2011.

God Bless

Kendall

Anonymous said...

Kim, just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you all.Keeping you in my prayers.Hold on to those close to you for support.Hugs from Hemet.Sherry

Amy said...

I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I'm not going to ask if your okay, I know you not. I just can't find any words....so I'll cry with ya. Much love and prayers

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you today as you start 2011 on an unexpected new path in life. I'm happy to see that some resources are coming available to you through internet friends. I hope you will utilize them for healing and support.

Prayers and hugs,
Connie F-G

Simon King ( Coventry UK) said...

So very sorry for you all , I lost my mother at the end of September so I know some of what you are going through.
Be strong but do not be afraid to cry.

Thinking of you all.

Simon

Anonymous said...

Still thinking and praying for your family. I can only imagine how hard it was for you to ring in a new year last night. Know that you are wrapped in much love and many prayers at this time.

Vickie P. said...

I have been following your family for years.I first read about Kody when a friend's son had cancer and a Caringbridge site.There were lots of kids who's stories I followed and have always been delighted to read of Kody's continued health. I pop in from time to time to check on the "K" family.I am in total shock, having just signed on after a couple of months.I am so very sorry for your unfathomable, immense loss. To me,as with all your readers,it feel like a member of my own family has been taken away too soon. Though there is nothing any of us can do to ease your pain,please know you are in our thoughts and prayers.

PJ said...

Hi Kim....please check in with us...we are so worried about you and the kids. I know it is hard for you, but so many of us are too far removed to do anything other than check this site and say hi.

Sea52Jay said...

Kim,
We need to hear from you, even if it is just to say that you can't write or talk but we have to know you are okay as you can be under the circumstances. I so worry about you slipping into a deep darkness where we will not be able to reach you. Everyone who has posted here holds you and the family close in their hearts. THe boys need you mom, Love you

Lori said...

Kim and Kids just checking on you this morning. So worried I know you have a million things going on and are so broken but please could you let us know you are ok. Sending you much love and hugs Lori
Please also what are you and the children's needs right now we want to help.

Jeannie Ford said...

Just dropping by to see how you and the K Klan is doing..Thinking of you and still praying for you hearts. Love you guys..

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