Monday, August 6, 2012

My Mantra

"My husband died, I didn't" Although a huge part of me died with him that day, I am almost to the point where some days I can actually believe that my dreams for happiness in the future are still very much alive. Some days I believe it...other days I want to be right back in his arms again, no matter what and who I leave behind. I have somebody in my life now who gives me hope for the future, cherishes me and loves me unconditionally. He is kind, patient and wonderful. Everything a woman could possibly want in a man. However...I can't fully come to grips with this yet. Some days I do, other days I just can't. Thankfully, he has a lot of patience and some huge shoulders to cry on. He loves me and calls me beautiful, even though I am a hot mess. Please don't hate me for this. It feels good to spend some time smiling and laughing once in a while. It's not the same as I felt with My Vinny, but it's a damn close second best. :) Photobucket

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

Good for you Kim. It's about what makes Y O U happy.

Anonymous said...

I think Karl would want you to be happy. Who knows, maybe he sent this man to you. Have the kids met him yet? What do they think? I wish you all the best.

Mary
miniteasets

Leeann said...

You should not feel guilty. Not in any way, at all.

Karl loved you and he would want for you to be happy, when you are ready, whether that is now or sometime in the future.

Only you know when that is, but if it feels right, then it is.

Hope Kody's hospital visit is short and uncomplicated. Your new granddaughter is beautiful!

Jenner said...

I'm happy you've found someone special :)

Anonymous said...

I've been following your blog forever...I am so happy for you. Take one day at a time....Karl wouldn't want you sad for another minute.

You made my day...wait, it's not all about me....

xo~Cris

Anonymous said...

So happy for you! Karl wouldn't want you to be sad for one more minute!

I've been following your blog forever....prayers for Kody now too....

Amy K said...

I wish you nothing but happiness; you deserve it!
You were with Karl most of your life, so surely this will be different.
I know from FB that these haven't been easy, new waters to navigate, but have also been exciting and new. "M" seems so supportive & loving to you - makes me smile. You are allowed to move forward at your own comfort level. So many people are rallying behind you (no judgement), and will never forget your wonderful Vinny no matter where life's path takes you!
As always, all the best to you and yours.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations. I argee with the earlier comment. Karl would want you to be happy. You have too much time left to spend in unhappy!

Rose

tricia said...

I'm so happy for you. Life is here for you to live. Live it how you wish.

ann butler said...

this post made me so happy and sad...so so happy for you...you deserve smiles, love and happiness...so sad for Kody...I hope he is on the mend in a HURRY...so glad you have someone to continue your journey...your Vinny wants you to be happy happy happy

Betsey said...

I agree with what others have said. Karl would want you to be happy. You deserve to be happy. I am in the midst of a divorce due to my ex being unfaithful...I too keep hope that the future will bring happiness.

Anonymous said...

My husband always says that to marry or be in a serious relationship after one spouse dies is a compliment to the relationship the two of you shared. Had it been a bad relationship, you wouldn't want anything to do with another one. But, when the relationship was good, you crave the feelings that you had, and seek another one to fill the hole left behind. God bless you and enjoy your life!!

Anonymous said...

Kim,

Wishing you happiness and love. Your friends/supporters all want you to be truly happy! : )

God Bless You,
Debby from Ohio

Toes in the sand said...

You are an amazingly strong woman. Beautiful inside and out. You have so much life to live and so much love to give. How wonderful you found someone to accepts you for who are, treats you the way you deserve to be treated. Keep taking those baby steps, but know you have people rallying behind you. Of course you can never, ever replace your Karl, but you CAN go on to love, laugh and share life with another. Karl wants that for you.

jenn in az said...

Don't feel guilty, everyone deserves to be happy. Yes,Vinny died and it's understandable that you feel that part of you did too. But you are still here, and you have needs and you deserve to be loved and cherished and I am sure he'd want you to be looked after and happy. Follow your heart, find happiness again and don't beat yourself up. Smile and be free...

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