It seems like forever that I have had it in me to pick up the camera, tonight I did...just by some fluke chance when I was taking out the trash and saw this little flower.
My posts have been few and far in between I know, and I apologize.
Back in December I had some surgery, it's taken a long time to recover from it and the Dr doesn't know why. Health wise, I'm falling apart it seems and I guess I can finally say getting old sucks lol.
Tomorrow I get some blood work results back that I had two weeks ago so hopefully somebody can fix me, I'm a mes...a hot mess.
Happy days come along more now, it's not that I'm ready to move on, but I am ready to smile and laugh again. I try to anyway, at least I don't fake it much any more.
Losing my husband has damaged my soul and broken my spirit...I crave the day I can be funny, be me again.
I want to find happiness again, I think it would be good for me. Unfortunately, my family here doesn't really agree.
It's a tough balance always trying to make everyone happy...I wonder if that is even possible?
Anyway, life goes on and we wake up every day...that's a good thing. Waking up alone isn't. It's my life now though, and I deal with it. I really have no choice.
Take care everyone, if you don't hear from me I'd like to take this time to wish everyone a very Happy Easter.