Of all my kids, I really think Kody most resembles his Dad...I mean, seriously...there is no denying this kid is a Kruppenbacher, he's got all the features. Dark hair, chiseled face, same smile, handsome, nice arms. He's his Daddy's mini me, that's for sure. :) These are from last week, I took them 5 minutes down the road in downtown Leesburg. There are a lot of cool spots there, all within one block. It really feels good picking up the camera again. BTW...Kody has developed a love of Doc Martins and sunglasses lately. BTW, Kody's going to be 17 this summer..can you believe it? He loves music...and after high school his dream is to go to college for something in the music/radio field. Sounds like a plan to me. :)

Keep your heart open to dreams... For as long as there's a dream, there is hope, and as long as there is hope, there is joy in living.

Thirty Two Years

We were married thirty two years today at exactly 3:10 in the afternoon.
This is the second anniversary I've spent without him.
I miss him more and more everyday.

I bought myself some pink carnations, I thought it would cheer me up a little.
It did. :)



"When tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart, for every time you think of me, I'm right there in your heart"

The Broken Chain

The Broken Chain by Ron Tranmer

We little knew that day,
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death, we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you.
You did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.

You left us beautiful memories,
Your love is still our guide.
And although we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

It's been a bad past few days. The grief is killing me...my new Dr. whom I saw yesterday seems to think so anyway. He says I have got to get past this somehow.
I just want to give up.

Happy Birthday In Heaven

Happy Birthday to the most beautiful man that ever walked this Earth, my husband Karl aka "My Vinny"
I miss you and love you so much baby...you still own my heart, that will never change.
Always and forever, I love you, I love you, I love you....your Izzy

I don't know why but today was much more tougher then last year.
The boys and I let some balloons go a little while ago, tonight we're having a birthday cake just for him, as soon as Bear comes home from youth group.



If you look close on these two, you can see a huge orb that is so big it totally encases all three balloons...amazing, but not surprising...he is always with us one way or another and he always lets us know somehow. :)





A lot of people say life goes on, for me it still stands still.
In my dreams, there is a happy ending, he always comes home.

Adriana's Easter

She was such trooper, no let me rephrase that...she's a diva, always was and always will be.
So, when I say it took less then ten minutes to take these, I am so serious...cuz if there is one thing diva's don't like is windy days and trying to balance a hat.
But, for me she will....well, OK for me and a bag of gummi bears. :)







Just for fun..she was trying to hard to keep that hat on. She'd hold it and when I yelled "Now", she'd take her hands off.
Sometimes it worked...



And most of the time it didn't.
Good Bye hat...



My Angel Vinny's birthday is tomorrow. He would have been 56.
Although he may not physically be with us, we know in spirit he is, so we'll be celebrating with a slow cooked in the oven all day ribs, a beach themed birthday cake and balloons with notes written on them.
The kids and I plan to do this every year, forever.
It's a new tradition that we'll keep in our hearts. :)

Happy Easter

From all of us in the Kruppenbacher family, we wish you all a very happy and blessed Easter.



We are actually doing something out of the box today and heading out to Daytona Beach.
Guess you could say I'm getting kind of crazy, and daring in my old age. What the heck, life is too short and I want to make as many memories as I possibly can while I still can.

That's my Adriana in that picture. I'll have more up this week.

Have a beautiful day everyone!!

Windy Days

Adriana and I went out yesterday for some much needed girl time and a Easter picture taking day that lasted maybe for a total of ten minutes. The wind was tossing her hat off and her hair was flying everywhere.

Here she is trying her best to keep that hat on. :)



I'll have some more pictures up here real soon.

Have a beautiful day everyone!!

If you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind wanders.



It seems like forever that I have had it in me to pick up the camera, tonight I did...just by some fluke chance when I was taking out the trash and saw this little flower.

My posts have been few and far in between I know, and I apologize.
Back in December I had some surgery, it's taken a long time to recover from it and the Dr doesn't know why. Health wise, I'm falling apart it seems and I guess I can finally say getting old sucks lol.
Tomorrow I get some blood work results back that I had two weeks ago so hopefully somebody can fix me, I'm a mes...a hot mess.

Happy days come along more now, it's not that I'm ready to move on, but I am ready to smile and laugh again. I try to anyway, at least I don't fake it much any more.

Losing my husband has damaged my soul and broken my spirit...I crave the day I can be funny, be me again.
I want to find happiness again, I think it would be good for me. Unfortunately, my family here doesn't really agree.
It's a tough balance always trying to make everyone happy...I wonder if that is even possible?

Anyway, life goes on and we wake up every day...that's a good thing. Waking up alone isn't. It's my life now though, and I deal with it. I really have no choice.

Take care everyone, if you don't hear from me I'd like to take this time to wish everyone a very Happy Easter.