Some days are just better then others. It's crazy that after 5 months you would think I'd finally be getting a grip on all this.
Some days, for no reason at all it is dark, sad and very lonely.
Some days I just get by.
Some days I laugh, I don't know why...maybe because I don't want frown lines? LOL...yea its vain I know.
So many people tell me how strong I am.
Don't let the outside fool you...inside I am still broken, dying and missing a man I would have gladly given my own life for.
Some days I wish it was me instead. Looking at the broken souls of my children is torture, it really is.
12 more days of school and summer vacation is here. This will be our summer to try and heal a little, spending time together.
This fall though when they go back, this Momma plans on getting back to school too. I'm just not positive what to do, wow...I never had a back up plan, who knew?
Anyway, I'll be back, I gotta run Kolin to school. :)