Good-Bye Daddy

This is all I have left, grieving children and a hole in my heart so deep.



This is the poem we picked for his prayer card {I think that's what it's called, not sure}

May you always walk in sunshine and God's love around you flow,
for the happiness you gave us, no one will ever know.
It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone, a part of us went with you the day God called you home.
A million times we've needed you, a million times we've cried.
If love could only have saved you, you never would have died.
The Lord be With You
And may You Rest In Peace
Amen

Thank you everyone for your kinds words, support and encouragement.
I am hoping this blog will help me to heal, I don't know. I am just still so stunned and in deep mourning for the most beautiful man that God ever put on this planet.
I will wait for him until the end of my time.

***I love you My Vinny***

Today

Thank you so much Miss Debbie. :0)

Someone gave this to me, when I lost my Mom...

To my dear Family
Some things I'd like to say,
But first of all to let you know
That I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from Heaven
Where I dwell with God above,
Where there's no more tears or sadness
There is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy
Just because I'm out of sight,
Remember that I'm with you
Every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you
When my life on Earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me
And He said I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again
You were missed while you were gone,
As for your dearest family
They'll be here later on.
I need you here so badly
As part of My big plan,
There's so much that we have to do
To help our mortal man.
Then God gave me a list of things
He wished for me to do,
And foremost on that list of mine
Is to watch and care for you.
And I will be beside you
Every day and week and year,
And when you're sad I'm standing there
To wipe away the tear.
And when you lie in bed at night
The days chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you
In the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on Earth
And all those loving years,
Because you're only human
They are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry
It does relieve the pain,
Remember there would be no flowers
Unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you
Of all that God has planned,
But if I were to tell you
You wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain
Though my life on Earth is o're,
I am closer to you now
Than I ever was before.
And to my very many friends
Trust God knows what is best,
I'm still not far away from you
I'm just beyond the crest.
There are rocky roads ahead of you
And many hills to climb,
But together we can do it
Taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy
And I'd like it for you, too,
That as you give unto the world
So the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody
Who is in sorrow or in pain,
Then you can say to God at night
My day was not in vain.
And now I am contented
That my life it was worthwhile,
Knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody
Who is down and feeling low,
Just lend a hand to pick him up
As on your way you go.
When you are walking down the street
And you've got me on your mind,
I'm walking in your footsteps
Only half a step behind.
And when you feel the gentle breeze
Or the wind upon your face,
That's me giving you a great big hug
Or just a soft embrace.
And when it's time for you to go
From that body to be free,
Remember you're not going
You are coming here to me.
And I will always love you
From that land way up above,
Will be in touch again soon
P.S. God sends his love.

Author Unknown

Today is the day I say my good bye to the man I love with all my heart. I am not ready for this.

One More Day

My Christmas gift to all my family and friends out there, please listen to the words, please read the words as they pop up on your screen. They are the truest words you will ever hear. I love you so much My Vinny, I would have given up my own life to have one more day with you.

Merry Christmas

From all of us in the "K" family, we wish all of a you a Merry Christmas.



In our family it is tradition to get a new ornament on Christmas Eve. I made sure my Vinny has his tonight as well. He would have loved it.

Please pray that I will get through the day tomorrow, I think Christmas will always be a time for sadness for me from now on. :0(

*I miss you so much baby, I wish you could see all your comments, you were loved not only by us but by so many people around the world. I love you with all my broken heart and all of my broken soul*

Celebration Of A Beautiful Life

Beyers Funeral Home
1123 West Main St.
Leesburg

Tuesday night from 5-7.

Afterwards he will be cremated and I will be able to bring him home to be with me forever.

I ask that night we celebrate my sweet angel's life instead of mourning his death.
Funny stories are for sure welcome.

He woke me up at exactly 4:11 AM this morning. 4-11 is his birthday and a number that always surrounded us.
I got my wish, that he let me know he was OK.

I miss him so bad, I feel like I want to die myself. I don't know what is keeping us going, must be auto pilot cuz the kids and I {mostly KK and Kaysha} are handling so much.
The boys are taking care of their Momma.
Their Daddy would be so very proud of them, I just know he would. :0)

Thank you from all of us for the comments hugs and prayers. We appreciate each and every one of you so much.

Forever My Vinny

Its with the greatest of all broken hearts and many tears that I let you all know that yesterday evening the man of live, my husband of 30 years, my lover, my best friend was killed in a head on collision. He was coming home from work. We are so very broken, and intensely hurt. I feel like my soul has been ripped out. He was stolen from his 6 children and I and it is not fair. I love you "My Vinny', forever and always.
*Kim/Isabella*



All he wanted to do was come home and be with us.

I'm so sorry this is about all I can do tonight.

The Heartagram Hat

Just my Bear in his new hat...





Look closely at that second one. See it? A tiny lil' mustache growing and some chin hair {that he refuses to let me tweeze off}.
A lot of you I know have been watching that boy grow up since he was something like 7 years old. Can you believe that is the same kid with the spikey hair and big toothless smile.
Sigh....they do grow up fast, but my baby he will always be. :0)

It's been real busy around here. Our oldest daughter is down for a week from NY, we've been doing lots of shopping, last minute stuff, cookie baking and generally just having a lot of fun times. The boys are spending literally every second with her. Even going to the Racetrac for icees is a cool thing for them, they love it and it's gets them out of my hair for oh, 15 minutes. lol.

This Thursday I was asked to take photos of a brand spanking new baby girl. she was just born this past Saturday so I really can't wait to break out the camera again. That thing has been stuffed in the closet neglected for a while now. It'll be real sweet to get my groove back again.

Other then that, things are normally insane around here...which is a good thing.

Take care everyone, dinner won't make itself so it looks like I better get on it.

Tree Lights Before and After

The first picture was taken before...



And the second was taken after the sweet lil' prescription pain pill that I take every night.
I like to think of it as the "I see sparkly things" medicine.
Either way it works in two ways, it keeps me comfortably numb and enables me to be the life of the sparkly things party.

Have a great day everyone!!

PS. Don't think bad of me, I've got mega migraines lately two herniated disks that are killing me. I feel old. Blah!

Reindeer {kick the young uns out of the room}

Vinny's new hat.

Yes I made it, yes those are reindeer and yes they are doing "that".



Being normal is so over-rated, really. lol.

Have a great day...TTYL!!

Just Playing....

As of lately these days, I've been spending more and more time trying to stay warm watching them play instead of documenting them playing.
Except for a couple days ago, I couldn't help it, I caved in, I stalked them, I pulled out the paparazzi identity.
They actually, for once, didn't really care. I guess giving them a break can be a good thing.

So, anyway, they were outside, taking advantage of a chilly late afternoon, throwing the football around, trying to keep a positive Jets attitude after last weeks play like a bunch of girls disaster.
Tomorrow we'll be eating some sushi...I hope. lol.





Air Bump...



And just because I think he has some really pretty green eyes when he is wearing green...



We have had a pretty busy weekend starting. Let's see, Vinny and I spent much of the day yesterday {he had a day off, imagine that??} running errands and doing some Christmas shopping for the boys.
Kody stayed home with a nasty headache, but around 6 last night he finally felt well enough for us to drag ourselves out to the Chinese buffet place and have some dinner out.
Then over to Bealls {it's a Florida only store, awesome clothes, loves it}, which was just a walk away where we found Kody a sweet pair of Nikes {for Christmas} on sale for $44.00 which was a huge difference from what our mall wanted, like over $100.00. For a pair of shoes, really?
Anyway, long story short...when your buying shoes for a 15 year old in a size 13, $44 doesn't sound bad, not bad at all.

Today the boys and I are headed over to Camp Boggy Creek for the annual holiday party and tonight the bunch of us are going over to Light Up Leesburg, Venetian Gardens to see the lights and listen to some music.

Tomorrow night is Kolin's football banquet and Monday is more dr. appt's in Kissimee for me.

Busy is good, busy is also tiring. :0)

Hope your all having an awesome weekend!!